http://loveformiles.tumblr.com/

Photo

Sun, 26 Jun 2011 09:36:06 -0400

The following is a post from my LDR blog:...

Sun, 26 Jun 2011 04:48:06 -0400

The following is a post from my LDR blog: Sinceyouhappened2meConfessions, mistakes, and I love you’s… The Making of the Rest of My Life

So this one is going to be a little bit less of an “article” and more of an “experience- type” entry that I’m hoping will give you more of an insight on my LDR experience.

Enjoy!

Without fail, regardless of the person and regardless of how I say it, every time I have tried to explain my relationship to pretty much anyone, I have seen the same reaction. As I’m explaining to these people that I have found the one person that I know for sure makes me truly happy, I watch the expressions on their faces go from shocked, to confused, and finally to doubtful.

But to tell you guys the truth, although I really wish I could be upset about that, in reasoning about it, I know that people who know me really have no reason to “completely understand” what I’m talking about. Not because they have never gone through it, or because they are cold-hearted cynics, but because before I met him, I had the emotional abilities of a spoon!

Yes! before him, I can tell you that I had never been in love, and I was completely ok with that! I was by no means alone, but lets just say that before him, I had gotten pretty good at the whole “getting out before i got hurt” stuff, because really, before I met him, I saw the idea of making myself that vulnerable to someone else, and even just showing simple emotion, as weakness. I’m not proud of it, but for me it worked! and sacrificing the, at the time unknown, magnificence of love for my emotional stability seemed like a pretty good deal.

Meeting him changed me completely.

Not instantly of course, because it really took him forever to break through all that “If I care too much, I’ll get hurt” stuff I had going on, and even then it took him a whole lot longer to make me admit that I had fallen in love with him, but he somehow did it!

The dreaded, life altering I Love You

He told me he was in love with me one night and out of nowhere. In all honesty, by this point I can’t say I didn’t see it coming, and by then I had already been toying with the idea of my “great escape”. But this time was different, because I know I could have walked out if I had truly wanted to, but the truth is; I didn’t want to, I couldn’t stop myself from being with him. That night, after what seemed like hours of silence, he asked me to call him back when I had something to say.

When I called back, I couldn’t do it.

I had once again, like I have done my entire life, let logic reign over my emotions and I hurt the one person I care about so much. After thinking about it so much, I called ready to walk away but all I could manage was “I can’t love you the way you want me to” and with that I knew I would damage him forever.

Being with you hurts, but being without you hurts so much more…

After my confession, against all odds, he told me that as much as it hurt him, he couldn’t be without me and we decided to be friends, by this point although I still stood strong in my logic that i didn’t want a relationship (let alone a long distance one), I was confused about all the feelings I had been suppressing that were now surfacing and making me reconsider.

For a long time we stayed like that, just friends, although we both knew we were so much more, until one night, this past winter, during one of our silly argument, I just snapped with a “shut up! I have something to say; I love you”

Now, as romantic as that may sound, in that very second I knew that saying it wouldn’t be enough. I had hurt him, and I was going to have to gain back his trust and show him that I meant every word.

The rest of my life…

I will always regret not having realized my feelings for him sooner, but I know that our story happened the way it did for a reason. We are so much stronger now, because it took us both so much work to get here, and that just makes us appreciate each other so much more. I know I’m lucky to have someone who gets me as well as he does, someone who I know will never give up on me no matter how stubborn I am, and someone who will be with me for the rest of my life, knowing that we will definitely have to work hard on our relationship and willing to take that challenge with me.

Signing off until my next post… Alex <3

ps, Whats your LDR story? Shoot me a message!

Photo

Thu, 23 Jun 2011 14:25:06 -0400

Photo

Thu, 23 Jun 2011 09:36:06 -0400

Photo

Thu, 23 Jun 2011 04:48:06 -0400

Photo

Wed, 22 Jun 2011 19:12:06 -0400

Photo

Wed, 22 Jun 2011 14:26:06 -0400

Photo

Wed, 22 Jun 2011 09:36:06 -0400

Photo

Wed, 22 Jun 2011 04:48:06 -0400

Celebrate the romance. Nurture the love. Defy the distance.

Tue, 21 Jun 2011 19:14:06 -0400

Celebrate the romance. Nurture the love. Defy the distance.

I just had a really bad skype night with my boy. He's in Philadelphia and I'm in Sydney, Australia. We've got a continent and ocean keeping us apart, not to mention uni and money. I just spent the last hour crying because I had assumed he would be able to come here in June to visit, but he won't have the money so we won't see each other again until January at the earliest. I guess I'm just feeling a little let down because I spent quite a few thousands to come visit him over Christmas and the last thing we said to each other before I left was see you in a few months. And now it's turned into see you in a year. We have been together for a little over a year now since we first met in Germany and spent 4 amazing months together there. I love him more than anything and I know in the end this will all be worth it. I guess I'm just having a hard time today. This isn't really a question, I guess I just needed to get this out and if anyone has any thoughts in regards to this or their own ldr "success stories" I would love to hear them right now.

Tue, 21 Jun 2011 14:22:03 -0400

Hold on, darling. You know where your relationship stands, so just keep being creative with the Skype dates. I hope this isn’t too late of a response, either, haha.

How about some of those stories then?

Photo

Tue, 21 Jun 2011 14:19:43 -0400

I've been in a long distance relationship and our 9 month would have been two days ago. He broke up with me because it's hard to feel the spark when I'm so far away. I don't know what to do, but I've lost my best friend and my soul mate. I don't know how I can convince him that the love we feel when we're together is worth the distance.

Sun, 10 Apr 2011 22:01:00 -0400

Tell him what you just told me. (:

Summer Romance

Sat, 26 Feb 2011 12:22:36 -0500

Finally after waiting for 4 years, we’re finally going to see each other. Ahhh!!! I feel so happy. I just wish he’s going to come on my 18th birthday X I don’t care if he doesn’t have anything for me. I just want him to be there and we would talk things out. We fought many times yet we didn’t explain anything why it happened. Despite of having no EXPLANATIONS at all, we’re still happy with each other. We call each other, make doodles and send it through mail which is really fun and romantic :)

Ahhh. I’m going to post again if we meet or not X

Stay inlove guys X

Photo

Sun, 20 Feb 2011 15:30:18 -0500

Photo

Sun, 20 Feb 2011 15:18:41 -0500

ayuliyana: Always.

Sun, 20 Feb 2011 15:18:03 -0500

ayuliyana:

Always.

Photo

Sun, 20 Feb 2011 15:16:24 -0500

Send me a:

Tue, 08 Feb 2011 20:07:52 -0500

T - for a truth.

S - for a secret.

W - for a weakness.

H - for something that makes me happy.

M - for something that makes me mad.

Photo

Tue, 08 Feb 2011 14:47:13 -0500